work
i just came across aeon magazine again, specifically this:
If work dominated your every moment would life be worth living?
There is, to begin with, constant tension, an overarching sense of pressure associated with the thought that there’s something that needs to be done, always something I’m supposed to be doing right now. As the second conversation partner puts it, there is concomitantly the looming question: Is this the best use of my time?
oh gosh
i think this is how i have ended up
i crave time to relax, then i can't switch off because i should be doing something better